In memory

           Words can't express all the emotions that have been experienced these last few days. I keep hearing my brother Corey running into the house and yelling," Nancy! Quincy got hit by a car!" After that it was adrenaline that took over. Now it's nerves and lots of emotions.
           There are lots of memories that have been coming back to me these last few days. They're slowly piling up and making me feel like I've truly lost the best thing that has ever been in my life. I've wondered why and how this could've happened...I was home. I could've prevented it if I would have only known! It's then that I realize that God took him. It was beyond my control. If God wouldn't have taken him like that it would have been in a different way. It was his time. I wonder what his fulfillment in life was too. I think that his death was his final fulfillment. He has touched more lives through his death then he probably could have if he lived on. There was a reason why he was so motivated, enthusiastic, and full of life. He had enough fun and life packed into those 12 years to last any average person a life time!
          I miss arguing with him already. One evening at the dinner table Quincy was pouring some tea into his cup. There was a lot of ice in the pitcher so the tea wasn't coming out very quickly. He had the pitcher upside down and the lid popped off. He got lots of tea and enough to cover the floor too. He immediately looks at me and says, "Nancy be quiet!" He knew I was going to chew him out for being careless.
          I remember taking him to Barnes and Noble to pick his Bible out. Quincy, Corey and I picked it out. I bought his first Bible for him. He was so proud of it. I'm so glad I did that for him now.
          I asked him to show me his muscles Friday morning because I thought he wasn't working hard enough. He proudly pulls his sleeve up and shows me his 12 yr. old muscles. Then I told him that I thought he should use them.
         Driving the kids to school brings memories of him too. I had just got my new car. He was sitting in the back seat. I seen him picking and smoothing the seats with his hands. I told him to quit it because he was going to wear my seats out. He then told me that I was going to wear my steering wheel out ever before he wore my seats out. That may happen! I was wrong that time!
         The last time we went swimming together brings back some good memories too. We raced across the pool, and tried to outdo each other with our flips. We tried doing twisty dives. We also went under water with our goggles on and threw the torpedo to each other as many times as we could until we ran out of breath. We were about done swimming and I was emptying the water out of my goggles. Quincy looked at me and said,"Nancy, you look so hilarious in goggles." then he laughed and dove into the water. I thought everybody looked funny in goggles but I could be wrong:)
          I don't know what life holds. Only God knows. I find assurance in the thought that God has everything in control and He knows what He's doing. I pray that God will provide a place of peace and rest for those that are grieving the loss of my dear brother.

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